4 years on and the right words are still hard to find, they still escape me.
I am blessed though, truly blessed with a wonderful fiancée who has given me the space I need to think things through and hold me when I need holding. Blessed with wonderful friends and family who are there for me and help as best as they can in these circumstances.
I’m also thankful for being able to take time out for the first time in 4 years. No exams to worry about or coursework to finish and so I can be still and reflect.
Having said that there are worries and concerns. Our flat in Southsea has fallen through and so we’re off down to Portsmouth tomorrow. Whilst I like the city and its nice to be there doesn’t exactly tie in with how I saw this long weekend break going when I first booked the time off.
Oh well, one year just maybe I’ll be able to be quiet and still but then perhaps its a blessing in disguise that at the moment I can’t be.
4 years on and yeah, these words aren’t the right ones either.
Dan