Numb kind of, like I can’t quite decide how I should feel. Life’s busy and very exciting at the moment but at the same time there’s a part of me that feels like I shouldn’t be too happy. Like I ought to be on the brakes a little, certainly over this month.
Does that make any sense?
This time last year I was something of a blubbering wreck, not exactly ideal coming into an exam season! The year before, for some reason I don’t remember being too bad but this year, I don’t know.
It’s all starting to feel like a distant memory, like the pain and guilt I feel are fading and in my head that all feels rather wrong. In my mind I think that I should still hurt but my heart is in the moment and looking forwards.
Sorry this is somewhat self-serving but I’ve always wanted this blog to be a fairly true reflection of me and so it is what it is.
Dan
11th May 2009
11:37 pm
Keep looking forwards feller. I wish the past to hold no pain for you.