Ok, so there are plenty more than two songs that hold greater meaning on today than other days but there are two specifically that seem to sum up how I’m feeling at the moment. The first is Dreaming While You Sleep by Genesis and the second is Majesty by Delirious. Both of these songs I’ve only really paid attention to in the last couple of weeks and both seem to pretty much say how different parts of me feel at different minutes in the day.
Dreaming While You Sleep, it’s strange in that it’s more about a hit and run but the sense of guilt is there. The lyrics and the emphasis of the whole song seem just right. I do feel guilty, no doubt about it and I guess that is something that I will carry. I guess I could cut open the lyrics and analyse them one at a time but it’s not productive or useful and to be honest just hurts some more.
Majesty is a song I’ve know for a couple of years but it was only last Sunday at Church that I really took notice of the words:
Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am,
Empty handed but alive in your hands.
Singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love,
In the presence of Your Majesty.
Majesty.
It had me thinking on Sunday. At the crash site there’s a tree which grows along the ditch and then goes up when it gets to the road and can see some light etc Well if I remember rightly the car was on a big chunk of it and I spent the first hour at a guess sat on this tree with all kinds of crazy things going around me. Someone and I’ve no idea who, not even a name put a blanket around me. I’ve still got it in fact, somewhere back home I’m sure it’s around. It wasn’t particularly cold that evening but just sitting there in the damp probably wouldn’t have been the best thing.
Anyway, I guess it was mainly a comfort thing. Something to cling onto and hold and that’s how I’ve felt most of my life since. I had nothing by the end of that night, everything that my hopes and aspirations were pinned on went and well now it’s plain to see that has all changed. A lot of the time God feels like that blanket, especially around this time of year and that song, Majesty does a good job of putting my feelings out as a song.
Right, might manage some revision today, maybe.
Dan