This time of year

7th May

I’ve been trying, really, genuinely trying to get some of this B202 report done but in the last 2 hours have probably only manged half a page of A4 at a push. I guess it’s just this time of year, I can’t concentrate and just find myself wondering, my mind wondering all over the place.

I wan’t to get this work out of the way, I should be able to. It’s not particularly hard but it just takes a little concentration and it would seem that at the moment I can’t. It’s so unbelievably frustrating, I’ve got the time to really get a good load of the report out of the way but all I seem to be able to do is search Google for memories.

I wish I had a better coping mechanism than the web. I guess it’s by no means the worse but it feels inadequate. I don’t know, I guess there is no coping method really but you just learn to live with it. In some way it becomes part of the every day, seeing an ambulance earlier didn’t exactly help, it didn’t trigger anything as such, just, I don’t know memories.

Sorry to waffle, I just need to type, something that I care about, perhaps clear my chest a little. Hopefully it’ll help get back to work, hopefully.

Dan

4 Responses to “This time of year”

Ben
7th May 2008
5:19 pm

Praying for you, Dan :) I can’t pretend to understand what it’s like, but I can still care :)
Plus I know exactly what you mean about concentrating in this time of year…

Toni
8th May 2008
10:54 pm

Take care feller, and keep pressing on. This time of year should make you think of new life, even though it doesn’t do that for us either. And as you’ve noticed, sometimes just committing some words to a page can help.

Good to see you Sunday BTW.

Dan
9th May 2008
12:11 am

Thanks Toni, I think you’re right that committing words to a page helps. I managed another couple of pages after this yesterday a whole lot quick than the half a page I’d managed before. I think I’ve got to be careful though that this doesn’t just become a doom and gloom place to vent myself.

Good to see you as well Sunday :)

Chris
3rd June 2008
11:50 am

You probably won’t read this now, but I do know exactly what you mean. I find it so hard that I can’t think of anything I can do that will make me feel any better.I just don’t know what to do with myself when it gets like this.

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