A little cry

23rd February

I haven’t cried like that for a long time, clutching the teddy.

Sarah’s been on my mind a truck load more than usual. Over the last couple of months I’ve given my testimony countless times and that has made a lot of scars feel very, very fresh.

I can’t believe how much it’s hurting and why now? Really, I have no idea. Perhaps I haven’t been praying enough recently perhaps I haven’t been wearing as much spiritual armour and now, well just a minute ago, all I wanted to do was cry.

I wish the teddy smelt as sweet as it once did. I wish I could go down to that ditch and just cry, beat my fists in the air and let my heart out.

I don’t understand why I’m hurting now. Alas a good cry seems to have helped for now but now I feel like some kind of valve. When the pressure grows, when the hurt returns then all I can do is cry.

Well, that explains one of the reasons why I haven’t been myself as of late.

Dan

2 Responses to “A little cry”

Jon
24th February 2008
11:00 am

your only human Dan (a tough one at that), let yourself go once in a while, it is alright to cry man. Was good to catch up with you one messenger the other day. Talk soon. x

Toni
24th February 2008
12:23 pm

I’m inclined to believe things never quite go away, and sometimes they come back, fresh and raw instead of dim and distant. We still have times of emotional fragility too, and just have to keep walking when we’d rather curl up in a ball or shout.

But there’s nothing wrong with crying at times.

Take care feller, we’ll be thinking and praying for you.

BTW glad to see you’re doing so well with the interviews.

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