Couldn’t get to sleep again last night but mercifully I’m not too tired this morning.
Whilst I was under the covers trying to sleep (seemingly the more I tried the harder it became) I was thinking, thinking how incredible the last 22 months or so have been. Just the way everything has worked out, the way it now all feels like to an extent it had been planned. Planned a long time ago and that now life is just unravelling before my eyes.
I was thinking how I could have gone to Uni last year but then I probably wouldn’t have met some of the great friends I now have down here. I was thinking how the year that I stayed on at Marlborough to do my exams could arguably turn out to be one of the most important in my life. Ok so I hardly studied at all and staying around really wasn’t about work but things like:
- Spending a year with Kita, I am fairly certain that as a couple we wouldn’t be as strong or even be together now if we hadn’t have spent all the time we did with one another.
- Spending time with friends. I must admit I am mainly thinking about Jon here but how I am now looking forward to Easter for the opportunity to go for a drink and catch up. Also people such as Will R whom I probably wouldn’t really know at all if it wasn’t for me staying an extra year or so.
- Learning, I think I learnt so much that academic year 05/06. Ok not a lot of it at school but out of school at Monday nights and Toni & Chris’. I think those evenings gave me a seriously good footing for now.
They are just a few things and there are more, lots more things that went on and still bat around in my head a bit. Like I wonder if I would have been able to cope at Uni last year? Whether I would have met as many good friends as I have? Whether my Christianess would have survived? Or would it have dwindled (it feels like it has flourished)?
I guess I’ll never know and that’s ok as I can’t really complain the way things have turned out so far. To an extent it almost feels like perfect, like I said, planned even.
That may sound a little strange as I’m apart from Kita but then this time apart has taught me how much I appreciate the time I do get with her. Actually now I think about it that extends beyond Kita but to friends as well, indeed I am rather looking forward to catching up when I get back.
God bless
Dan