Ok, so it took Kita a very serious text message to get me out of a loop, to kick me into gear and for me to stop being so ruddy selfish.
So what has happened?
Well after a tearful conversation we kind of got back to just loving one another. Being honest and frank. As a result I’m catching a train tomorrow to come back for valentines day and possibly 5 mins of her birthday. It’s not too big a deal as being the first week of a new semester there are no labs and lectures are only introductory and online. Plus weighing it up; happy and supportive girlfriend versus a few simple lectures. No contest, in a way this is simply me returning a tiny bit of the support she has given me. It’ll cost a little but I’m sure it’s worth it, positive in fact.
Now I think about it, I feel positive. I feel good that anything put in my path or Kita’s we can work at. Plus I feel strong, I feel like our relationship feels strong. It took an outburst but it’s like I’ve been (like I said) kicked into gear. I must put more effort into the second most important relationship in my life, Jesus clearly is in the lead but I don’t think Kita will have an issue with that.
To Kita:
“I love you, I always will, thank you for being there for me. I love you and this adventure called life, I want to spend with you wherever it may lead.”
1 Corinthians 13
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
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13And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
God bless,
Dan